Hair Changes!

I've never really done that much to my hair, I'm too much of a wimp. I'd love to have a bit of red into, like when the sun shines on your hair it looks red but looks brownish in the dark and I quite like the ombre look.


My hair colour is light/meduimish brown.
I started having highlights in it probably when I was about 15 and they just got thicker when eventually I took the plunge and decided to go peroxide blonde. I was blonde from about 2007 till I got back off holiday in August 2008. It was when I was on holiday that I just out of the blue decided I wanted to change my hair colour. I hadn't had much luck with boys and a part of me thought maybe a change in my hair colour would make me feel better. I decided when I got home I would dye my hair back to a brown colour and enjoy the single life.
It was 2 months later that I meant Mark and have never looked back :)




                                        
This is my natural colour, before I touched it with any colour products!








                                                                                      




















                     This is when I started to have highlights in my hair

Starting to go more blonde :)

This is when my hair fully peroxide blonde, I do have days where I miss my blonde hair but it was so high maintence and my hair was awful - like straw! But I glad I did it. It was a part of my teenage years.

This was taken a think a day or too after I had my hair dyed back to brown, I remember when the hairdresser was putting on the brown dye. She asked me if I was 100% sure and I did question myself, but I knew it was the right thing.

And this is a more recent photo of my hair. I did used to wear hair extensions as I got my hair cut just above my shoulders in March 2009 and I hated it but I don't wear them now as my hair feels long enough to me, which I'm quite pleased as for me hair extensions become such a chore and they were quite uncomfortable.

Things That Make Me Happy

Happiness


Glow in the dark stuff
A bubble bath
A smile from someone who doesn't do it often
A hot shower when you are freezing
A nice pair of sandals
An unexpected kiss
Buying presents for others
Being nice and snug in pyjamas
Being complimented on a insecurity
Coffee
Chocolate Milkshake
Making someone laugh
Charm bracelets
Christmas decorations
Childhood pictures
Cool breezes on a hot day
Coming home after being away for a while
Dreaming
Days when you feel beautiful
Dreaming about my wedding day
Family
Fuzzy socks
Fresh bed sheets
Falling asleep to the rain
Fake nails
Good morning texts
Hot water bottles
Having a nice glow to your skin
Having 'me' time
Long eyelashes
Messy buns
Memories
Music
My childhood
New makeup
Putting your trackies on after having leggings on all day
Rainbows
Skittles
Starbucks
Snuggling in your blanket
Smell after it's rained
The Vampire Diaries
The smell of popcorn at the cinema
The 90s
The first sip of coca-cola
Unique baby names
Watching the snow fall

Day 22

Best Thing This Year!


I can't really think of anything that has happened this year that would be the best thing. Of course still currently saving for our mortage every month is an amazing thing.


But I think I would have to save the best thing that has happened would of from last year :)


The day me and Mark got engaged. One of my best days of my life so far.
It was our 3 years that day (23rd September 2011) and we went to Brighton and Mark asked me then. I ideally wanted my ring from one of the shops in Brighton down the lanes. Just because we've always gone to Brighton and it has memories and means something to both of us. Of course I didn't care how much it cost and I just wanted it to be from Brighton. I managed to pick one I really liked and working in childcare I needed it to be practical to wear at work.

                                                                                                   

Flowers Mark brought me for our 3 years                                I put one the petals in a keyring to
                                                                                                      remember the day


It was such a lovely feeling coming home on the train, engaged! I couldn't wait to tell my family and Mark's family. 

Day 21

10 Favourite Foods

Maltesers

Spaghetti Bolognese

Milka

Fish and Chips

Pencils

Pizza 

Grapes

I only like the white grapes, don't like red grapes

Gammon 

Baked Potato

Harbio Jelly Babies

Day 20

A Difficult Time


I have incredibly lucky to say I have never had anything so bad happen to me (touch wood) 


When my Gran died I was only 12, I never cried, think it was because I didn't truly understand. I was old enough to understand she had cancer and wasn't going to survive but I can't remember the day my mum told us three?! I remember her being in hospital and us all going to visit her and then when she came out of hospital. And I was just waiting for her to go, as I knew she wasn't going to survive and when my mum came home to tell us she had died. I still didn't get upset. 
It's more now that I realise I'm never going to see her again and when I do things and things in the future that she could of been here to see that I get upset.


These things may seem trivia to some people and has I haven't had a very diffcult time, these things are the things that have affected me.
I remember when I found out I had a curve in my spine (scoliosis), don't think it helped that when the doctor saw how wonky I was (the curve causes your waist to look lop-sided) she said ''oh how abnormal''. Thank you so much. I was a 14 year old girl, self esteem was low, like any other normal growing teenage girl, growing into her own body and skin and giving the fact that I didn't know anything about this scoliosis I thought I was going to die.
Looking back now it makes me laugh. Yes, it can cause death but my case was one that developed through the teen years, meaning I had down most my development so the curve would grow worse as I grew in height.
I remember going to East Surrey Hospital and then them transferring me to Stanmore where they perform the surgery. The always said to me I was never a serious case where they recommended surgery, I would only have it if I wanted to, so basically for cosmetic - to make me look better. I didn't see the point in that, could never see the curve when I had my clothes on and even when I'm in a bikini you can't really see it. I know it's there and my mum and mark can see it but that's only because they know about it but for someone who doesn't know what scoliosis is they wouldn't even look at me to think it :)
The surgery includes my spine cord being fused and my spine being straightened and them putting metal rods in-between to keep the spine straight. I would probably have to spend about 6 weeks in hospital and at least 6 months in a back brace (meaning a lot of time of work) and they doctors said to me I could still have back ache and I could become stiffer then I am now.
I have developed arthritis over the years, I get it just underneath my hips, but the pain is more in my bottom. (Very hard to explain) It makes me feel like a 80 year old lady and it seems to develop more in the cold (so snow days can be very difficult, specially if I have to walk to work) or if I've been sitting or laying in a weird position (am still trying to figure out what these positions are)
I have managed to get through the painful times, I don't take any painkillers as my personal opinion is that as I get older or when I am pregnant the likelihood is that my back pain will get worse and that may be the time I will need painkillers and if I am on painkillers now, they will just need to keep getting strong.
I don't let it affect my life I just get on with it and half the time I actually forget I have it. I consider myself quite unique and individual as it's not a very well known condition.

Day 19

I Collect


When I was a teenager I used to collect the Me 2 You teddy bears. I don't anymore just because I've run out of room I have so many. 
I've had to put some away in boxes to make room for DVDS and books but I can't throw them away as they are a part of my childhood.
Mark brought me a massive on the first Valentines Day that we were together and he's got me a few other ones ever since.

Another thing I've just recently started to collect are the charm bracelets, they are very similar to the Pandora charms but are called Believe Beads from Amazon. They are so cheap and just as nice as the Pandora charms.
I've decided I'm going to have four different bracelets.

1. Me and Mark
2. Family
3. Memories
4. Random charms that I like.

They are so cute and so unique to you. 

Day 17

My Proudest Moment


I have got just one proud moment, being able to tell people I am saving for a mortage makes me smile as I feel like I am going to achieve something eventually, also, I've achieved a Level 3 childcare qualification when I was at college.
As well, I passed my driving theory and practical first time :)

And one of my most recent proudest moment is doing Race For Life. I completed it in September 2011. I did it with my mum and my sister, Lucy. It was 5km and having a bad back I was quite worried about my back hurting, we walked the whole way but we completed it and I was so proud specially as we were doing it for Gran and I managed to get over £100 for doing it which makes you feel so proud.

This was before the race and all of our back signs. Because we put pictures on them too, we had lots of people pointing at them - think they attracted a lot of attention (a good idea of mine)

This is after the race, I was knackered and my back ached but knowing I had just raised money for charity was such a good feeling and I was smiling to myself all day.

Day 16

Top Of My Bucket List

1. To own my own house or flat
2. To become a mummy
3. I'd love to get a degree
4. To visit New York, Paris, Australia 

Day 14

If I Won The Lottery


If I did win the lottery, which would be a lovely thing. I would buy me and Mark a 4-bed house with a big garden, as we are currently saving for a deposit to put down on a flat. That would be a dream.
I would then buy a flat or give a equal amount of money to my sisters so they could either buy themselves somewhere to live or just keep it for their savings and then give my mum and dad some, for all the work and love they have given me other the years they could go on holiday. 


I would also like to donate money to certain charities. 
Great Ormand Street Hospital - Those poor children haven't chosen a life like that I if the money can give them the best then I would be so happy
Lifeboats - I have previously donated money to this charity. This charity was the charity my Gran always gave money to and has it was 10 years she died I donated £5 :)
Scoliosis - If a charity exists I would give money to this. I understand first hand how this can affect people. I am very lucky that my case only developed when I was 14 so I'd done most of my growing and wasn't a serious threat, but for the children who are born with it, it can serious hurt you and crush your organs

Day 13

My Earliest Childhood Memory


Like most people I don't know if my memories are from seeing home videos and photos. 


I can remember being an Angel at Playgroup for the Christmas play. My costume had tinsel around the collar and sleeves and I was picking off. I remember being told not to. I was only three!

I can definitely remember our holiday to Paris, France and going to Disneyland Paris

And thinking back now I can remember when my youngest sister, Lucy was born. I was only 5 and my other sister Katie would of been 3. I remember using waking up that morning and our mum and dad weren't there and all of a sudden our Gran was there, my mum had gone into labour with Lucy during the night and my dad had rushed to go get my Gran to come look after us. That morning I remember visiting my Mum and Lucy in hospital, we took her Peanut M&Ms and then I remember my mum coming home that day with Lucy, and me and Katie watching my mum feed Lucy.

Our Gran had a big involvement in our lives. She looked after me until I was 20 months as my mum had my sister and gave up work and although I can't remember that time, I'm grateful that I had that time with her. We always used to go see her on Fridays when we were off school to take her shopping. She would come over to ours every few years for Christmas. Unfortunately she's not around anymore and I wish she was, like any other person who wishes their grandparents were here, just to show her how far I have come (I was 12 when she died) and I would loved her to see me working, driving and the most thing is I would of loved her to of met Mark (I know she would of loved him so much) and for her to be at my wedding :( But I know I can't do anything about it and I know she's watching.                                                                                                                        
This was taken about 5/6 months after I was born
                                                                                  This was Katie's 2nd birthday - October 1993
This was Christmas 1995
                                                                              
This was New Year's Eve 1999 - This was probably the last photo I had taken with Gran  

Day 11

Fifteen Of Your Favourite Things


My phone
I'd be without this. Keeping in contact with Mark and my mum, as well as using it keep updated with Twitter and Facebook


Ipod
I couldn't live without my music. I always am listening to it when I'm at home.


Mark
How could he not be one of my favourite things. I love him to pieces. He's my world.

My family
My family are everything to me :)

Chocolate and sweets
I have such a sweet tooth


My car
I love my independence, I don't know what I'd do without my car. I use it so much; to get to and from Mark's and home, as well as to work.


My bed
My bed is so comfy.


My charm bracelets
The charms are so cheap from Amazon and they are so similar to the Pandora charms.

The Vampire Diaries
I think this is the only programme that I have watched and have really fallen in love with it. It's amazing. I'd highly recommend it to people.

Uggs
I love uggs. They are so comfy. I have two pairs.

Tracksuit bottoms
I live in these at home. They are so comfy.


Starbucks
I always have one of these when I go to Brighton or London. I love the Hot Chocolates.

Shopping
I have an obsession with buying things.


Brighton
I absoultey love Brighton. Me and Mark go there all the time.

Lazy days
These are the best.

Day 10

What Is My Best Physical Feature


People have said I have a nice bum has it's quite curvy but I absolutely hate it. As I have a tiny waist  it looks horrible.
I have been told my eyes has they are big and brown and I think I would have to agree with them.

Day 9

What Are My Worst Habits

• I can get very moody and argumentative when I'm tired. I'm more of a morning person, I don't do well at night.
• I'm quite rubbish at parking. I have got better over the years but my problem is I panic too much. I will never parallel park. 
• I have am obsessed with checking that I have my things about a million things. I know I've got them with me but I worry that I have lost them.
• Eating too much chocolate.
• I spend way too much money on clothes and makeup/beauty products

Day 8

                                                 

This is my current handbag. I am always changing my handbag. I love the brown and nude handbags.

Inside my handbag

• My purse
• My kegs
• Three different lip balms
• J-Lo - Glow Perfume
• Deodorant
• Hair bands
• Mirror
• My locker key for work
• Very strong mints
• Chocolate Biscuits
• Love Hearts
• Hand Cream
• Chocolate Buttons
• 4head
• Nasal Spray
• Tic Tacs
• Lipstick pen
• Cream for my eczema

Day 7

My Pet Hates


I wish I wasn't but I am one of the biggest moaners ever, I can always find something to moan about and I so wish I wasn't like this. I have a amazing life and I have all my family so will am I moaning.


Rubbish drivers
The amount of times I have had to stop suddenly whilst driving, well I've lost count. It's normally taxi drivers, they think they own the road. A lot of people think they don't have to indicate, obviously I'm a mind reader I know where you're going. I can have road rage and have used my horn quite a few times, but it makes me feel so much after. I hate the people who drive right up your arse and try to intimate you!


Cyclists driving through red lights
If you want to ride a bike on the road, one wear a helmet because as soon as you fall off and whack your head you're be moaning you've got concussion and two, driving through red lights really makes my blood boil. You wouldn't get cars going through red lights (well maybe a few) so why do you think you get the right to go through them, if you're on the road you follow the highway code because as soon as a car comes the opposite way and wipes you out, you're be complaining that you were the innocent one. That's why we have traffic lights!


Smokers blowing smoke in my hair
I have nothing against smokers, if you want to smoke then do it. But please do it whilst you're walking in front of me and blow the smoke in my hair. I don't want my hair or clothing to smell so that's why I choose not to smoke.


Loud eaters & people who play with their food
If you want to chew loud then go and sit the other end of the room. It's disgusting! I don't want to hear what's in your mouth moving around?! And people who play with their food! WHY?! If you don't want it, move it to the side of your plate and put your knife and fork down. FINISHED! You're not a child, you don't need to move it around, make pretty patterns in it. If it's that amazing then eat it :)


People who aren't aware of what's around them
This is one of my biggest bug bears when out shopping. People are walk like turtles and then just suddenly stop! It's almost like you need a slow and fast lane when shopping. I'd get a lot done quicker if they did exist.


Gossipers
I know we are all guilty of a little gossip but why do people feel the need to go that extra mile and spread rubbish about people. It's not nice and quite frankly you need to get a life!


Lazy People
I can't stand people who would quite easily just sit on their bums and watch you work. Oi! Why don't you do some work. 

Day 6

My 5 Senses Right Now


18.15pm Sunday Evening


See
Me, Mark, my mum & dad are all sat in the living room. My dad and Mark are watching something about football on the TV and my mum is knitting :)


Taste
The sweets I eat just recently :) 

Feel

I can feel my nice warm fluffy socks 

Hear

I can mainly hear my music which is Emeli Sande - My Kind Of Love, but I can also hear the tv and my dad and mark talking

Smell

I can smell my sweets - yummy!

Day 5

10 Songs I Like Right Now

1. Maroon 5 - Payphone
2. Lana Del Ray - Born To Die
3. Goo Goo Dolls - Iris
4. Tracy Chapman - Fast Car
5. Florence & The Machine - Never Let Me Go
6. Sigur Ros - Dauoalogn
7. Emeli Sande - My Kind Of Love
8. The Piano Guys - Desert Symphony
9. Imogen Heap - Come Here Boy
10. Nicki Minaj - Starships

Day 4

What Am I Afraid Of?


I am a very nervous person and I do worry a lot I am trying to change this about myself as it does affect me in certain situations but they everyday stuff I am afraid of is what you would hear most people are scared of.

1. Dogs
2. Flying
3. Spiders
4. Not being good enough
5. The end of the world
6. Earthquakes
7. Tornadoes

Everyday stuff that I am scared of also includes losing my car (I am constantly checking my car is locked), frightened that my car will get stolen, losing my bag, debit card or phone, doing something wrong at work. But the most common one is death. I try not to think about this too much but I have had quite frequent panic attacks over this. I know there is nothing I can do about it but it's still not nice to think about, I just try to think about nice things to get it off my mind and it seems to work :)

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Day 3

My Favourite Quotes


Quotes are one of my favourite things. I love it how you can use them on Facebook or Twitter and they explain how you feel and I especially like the ones that have a hidden meaning

This is one me and Mark found a wall in Brighton

I have the quote 'Let the monsters see you smile' tattooed on my foot. It was such a big meaning to me.


'You may trod me in the very dirt, but still like dust, I'll rise'


'You can't face the world if you're not being yourself'


'You can discover what your enemy fears most by observing the means he uses to frighten you'


'You can dance anywhere, even in your heart'


The next tattoo I want to get is the quote 'You are the most beautiful thing I hold in my heart'


'With a whisper, we will tame the vicious seas like a feather bringing kingdoms to their knees'


'When you see only one set of footprints it was then I carried you'


'When thought is closed caves, then love will show it's roots in deepest hell'


These are just a few of my favourite quotes but I have so many more :)

Day 2

20 Facts About Me

1. I have had braces twice - I'm waiting to hear when I can get my braces off
2. I have had scoliosis (curve in the spine) since I was 14 and this sometimes causes me to have very bad back ache
3. I am quite scared of dogs and flying - I fly in 2 weeks!
4. I have a massive sweet tooth and could eat chocolate all day
5. I work in childcare and it is the only thing I've ever wanted to do
6. I suffered panic attacks whilst I was in Year 10 & Year 11 at school
7. I have 8 tattoos
8. I've climbed Mount Snowdon
9. I love all sorts of music, I have a big variety on my ipod
10. I'm can be really shy in certain situations
11. I can't go in lifts that I can't see out, but I am fine with ones that I have see out of
12. I love Brighton, everything about it
13. I wear contact lenses and have been since I was 14
14. I had peroxide blonde hair when I was 17-18 years old
15. I had an overactive thyroid for a few months after getting a virus :/
16. I rarely ever drink alcohol
17. I never went to school on the last offical day of school and never went to prom
18. I am obsessed with The Vampire Diaries
19. I have to have the music volume on a odd number
20. I'm very insecure about myself and this can make doing certain things quite hard for me

Day 1

Introduction and Recent Photo


Okay, so this feels slightly weird writing a blog but when I saw other people I was quite interested the idea of being able to write your thoughts, feelings and also memories down and being able to look back at them.


I'm Jess, I am 22 years young living at home with my mum, dad & 2 sisters, whilst me and my boyfriend, Mark, save for a deposit for a mortgage for a flat. This is one of the main things I am proud to tell people as I have been saving for it since I was 20 years!
I have been with Mark for almost 4 years now and we got engaged in September 2011, in Brighton. Brighton is our favourite place to go. We've always gone on our anniversary. I just love it down there and the shops are amazing! Everyone loves a good shop don't they?
I work in childcare and hold a Level 3 Childcare qualification. I work 40 hours a week, which can be very knackering but it is, also, very rewarding. I couldn't imagine doing anything else as a job.
I would love to be able to take my qualification further and complete a degree but working the hours I do. I think it is possible but I don't think I would have any time to myself and then you come to the fact about how much it will cost. Money is also a problem!


I love listening to music & any type of music. I constantly have my headphones plugged in. Headphones in, world off - that is the saying. I love finding new quotes and sayings and I am currently in the process of deciding what quote to have tattooed on me, which is another thing I have an obsession with TATTOOS. I have eight! :) I love chocolate and could eat it all day, all week & all year round. I really enjoy meeting new people and family gatherings

 

This is one of the most recent photos of me, this was taken at Mark's uncle's wedding in February 2011

This is me  and my lovely boyfriend which was taken in  April 2012